Missive From ‘Merica: Steamy Fixins…

*Whoa! What you doing, Clicky?*

*Is that? …/rustles pages… It is! It’s a new missive from Cade…*

*Fabuloso! Let’s get down to it, Clicky…*

Hello there, Dear Reader 😀 

I know, I know; it’s been exactly 100 days since our last taste of the Okie Devil of TextUS’ special fixins…

*Yeah, it was on 5th November last year, Clicky… /lights up and smokes…*

And…

… This one’s a bit on the steamy side. Enjoy! 😉

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There are many moments in life. One of the more interesting being when you are folding a comforter, having to suspend it way up in the air by holding it up over your head so you can straighten it out, your knuckles come into contact with particleboard paddles moving at speed, and you suddenly remember…”HEY! I have a ceiling fan, and the damn thing is on!”

Don’t fret tho, I’m fine. I really didn’t need those particular layers of epidermis anyway.

^Matt Lange – Morbidly Obese (Redacted Mix)^

I GOT LAID LAST NIGHT!!!

OK, so, calm your sex hormones, I was asleep and it was a dream, but…I GOT LAID LAST NIGHT!!!

 lolz...

About as close to sexual intercourse as am ever to get again, so, close enough. Anyway, she was quite young, probably 35 years old, and quite fit. Yeah, lotta red flags there, and I’ll go ahead and spoil it in that I honestly didn’t wake up feeling great about having an meaningful erotic dream because the whole damn dream was so full of red flags that I’m still torn as to whether I had a good time in the dream or not. We’ll get to that tho.

Anyway, I’m in this huge room in a house that I do not know, the room is painted flat white, plenty of lighting although I would not exactly call the room bright, the dark beige carpets and many assorted rugs everywhere, and the room is rather strange because it had to be at least 30 x 30 feet (9 x 9 metres) but the room contained no vaulted ceilings nor even elevated ceilings. Seemed more like a giant garage that someone had finished out. Another weird thing was that there were all manner of people coming and going. Seemed like every 5 seconds, someone was popping in one door, then exiting another, which brings up another oddity about this room in that it had an excessive amount of doors. Only 4 walls but each wall seemed to have way many more doors than even a room of this size would require, and I started to think maybe this room I found myself in must be a centralized type room rather than some add-on type room.

To make matters even more strange, everyone who popped into the room never loitered, and they always closed the doors. They’d walk into the room from one door, close it, make a beeline for another door, open, ingress, close. And yes, there were also a ridiculous amount of people moving about. So yeah, here I am in this room, reading a book, and this gal pops in and starts chatting me up. Really strange as not a single person has paid me one bit of attention, then all of a sudden this on lady not only notices me, but she makes a beeline for me instead of a door, then starts up a conversation.

(red flag...no one, and I mean NO ONE in my real life ever strikes up a conversation with me, and if they do, I can almost be assured that they want something and they think I have it) 

I cannot recall how it was that this conversation turned into a sexual encounter so rapidly, but I do recall her beginning to strip down to reveal a bikini, immediately removed her bikini top, mentioned that she’d been interested for some time in perhaps becoming friends with me but could never work up the courage to speak with me, and she then said something like, “I’ve also heard you were a great lay and I want to see for myself”.

(yep, another red flag) 

Let me interject at this point to explain that “the feeling” of the dream was as such that none of this felt particularly awkward within the framework of the dream itself. Yes, I recall having a “is this really happening?” type of feeling, but at the same time the environment itself did not emit that “RUN!!!” vibe. Like, somehow, and embedded within the framework of the dream itself, there was nothing within the perceptible realms of sensory and logical data which even hinted at the “something is really fucking wrong here dude! Fucking run! Run for your fucking life!”, which I know for a fact is quite prevalent within my actual life. Which is why I am single, why I do not “chase women” or date or whatever, why I am hesitant about trying to find a relationship, blah blah blah.

Digress. 

So, at this point I’m sitting on the floor with the book I was reading still in hand, this really attractive and shapely woman is standing right in front of me wearing only bikini bottoms, looking at me, and I finally have this strange vibe wash over me. It is not really a warning signal of sorts, more of a “this relationship is unlikely to work out long-term” more than a “this relationship will end very badly” sort of vibe. It is at this exact same moment that she quickly stoops down, begins kissing me quite passionately (or at least, forcefully) and simultaneously begins to unbutton/unzip the shorts I’m wearing. Is it weird to say “the shorts I’m wearing”? Is it really necessary for me to point out that the shorts she is unbuttoning/unzipping are not a pair in my dresser drawer? Should I have said “my shorts” instead of “the shorts I’m wearing”? Not sure how to phrase that as both of those seem odd to me.

Digress. 

Once unbuttoned and unzipped, she grabs the sides of my shorts, then backs away and pulls them off. She’s bent over facing towards me and she pulls my shorts down rather hastily but unevenly/alternates which side she is pulling on, and as a result her breasts, which are not large nor particularly pendulous even due to her posture, rock side to side as a result of her pulling motion on my shorts. Gonna take a moment here to mention that the form of a woman and the motion(s) of her being are fascinating to me. Even when a woman is standing still, and even in/with women who are somewhat less than “the ideal woman shape(s)”, her form is moving always. The curves, the bends, the way in which a woman moves…everything about a woman’s form is an absolute delight. Oh, and again this woman was quite fit, but she had hips for days. Even if she’d had more substantial breasts, and even had she not been wearing French-cut bikini bottoms, I don’t think either would have diminished the majesty of her hips. I’d not seen her ass yet, but I’m about to.

Moving on. 

As soon as my shorts came off, she dropped them to the floor, and without missing a beat she grabbed her bikini bottoms, off they came, and to the floor they also went. She quickly marched right back towards me, straddling my legs and facing me and placing her public mound almost right in my face, again leaned down/bent over, grabbed my shirt at the bottom, which now placed her breasts right in my face, she then stood again taking my shirt off as shit did, dropped it to the floor, then offered me her hand. I put my book down, she pulled me to my feet and then led me to one of the many rugs that were laying about the room. She sat down, never releasing my hand, pulled me to the floor then pushed on me indicating I should lay down and on my side, she then turned opposite me and then laid down in the 69 position for a moment, but then immediately flipped over laying facing away from me putting her ass right in my face and she said “I want you to start by my licking my ass”.

I told her, and rather matter-of-factly I might add, that “we are not well acquainted enough yet for me to do that sort of thing.” She sat up on an elbow, looked at me, then gave a mock frown, she then got a really alluring look in her eye, her face turned from the fake frown to a sultry smirk and said, “well then, that will give me something to look forward to at some future meeting. But as for now…” at which point she flipped back over facing me, and things get a little blurry at this point.

Yes, we engaged in all manner of “freaky sex” encompassing just about every position and configuration you might be able to imagine, but it really was blurry. We were doing these things, but within the framework of the dream and even now that I am outside of the dream, there was all kinds of stuff happening but it all had this strange air that it was not actually happening, even tho it was. Keep in mind that during all of this, people are still coming and going in and out of these doors. Not a single soul is paying us one bit of mind, and we too are generally not paying them any mind other than perhaps I did seem to notice that people were coming and going.

So, with that in mind, we’d been “at it” for some time, when suddenly, a woman walks into the room via a door, and she makes straight for us. This is quite jarring of course since everyone else seems to not know we exist at all. This woman walks over and seems to know this woman I’m having intercourse with. She is what some might call “a bit heavyset” or perhaps “chunky” or “healthy” or some other nonsense nomenclature that we pigeonhole folks with. She’s pretty, with long hair that is kinda frazzled as if she’s been walking outside in the wind, sizeable breasts that do not appear to be restrained by a bra, and through her shirt, I can see that her breasts almost appear to be resting on her belly, even tho she really doesn’t have “a belly”.

I guess I don’t feel bad about somewhat “sizing her up” as I’ve tried since she arrived to make eye contact with her but she is ignoring me completely, and it’s almost as if she can see me attempting to make eye contact but consciously avoid it it. So, here I am sitting on the floor, my legs extended out straight and my hands behind me/holding me up, the woman I am with is atop me in “regular cowgirl”, and this other woman is just standing there and looking at my partner, who is also looking at this woman/they are in eye contact, and this new woman says rather flatly, “Can I have him next?”

lolz...

I didn’t laugh in the dream, but I gotta laugh here because I think at this point my brain has to KNOW, even in slumber, and without a doubt, that this, is a dream. The woman I’m with shoots me a glance, has a smirk on her face, and whilst still looking at me she says “I don’t mind sharing him if he doesn’t mind giving you a turn of your own.” The other woman did an immediate about-face, went straight for the same door she’d entered the room via, and left, all without so much a shooting me a single glance or acknowledging me in any way, other than her request to my partner “for a turn”.

OK, so at this point, the fuzzy sexual encounter with this current partner gets even more fuzzy. I only know that we seemed to have continued our exploits in some way(s), but I honestly have no idea in what way(s) nor the length of time expended. I only know that it seems like a large amount of time was somehow compacted into a small space, and then suddenly, she was gone. The very moment she was gone, her “friend” reappeared, marched right over to me, and said “did you know that she is married?”

Somewhat aghast, I replied that I did not know she was married, and now I’m suddenly thrown into this rapid depression of “fucking hell, now I gotta deal with this shit”. I guess this friend of hers “wanted a turn” only to come back and tell me that her friend I was banging, was married. This had all been some kind of setup I guess. But to make matters even more strange, this revelation did not seem to phase the friend one bit. I guess she could tell that I was distressed at the news she’d just provided me, she’s standing above me staring at me rather blankly, she then reaches down and grabs the bottom of her shirt with both of her hands, removes the shirt in an extremely rapid motion, then bends down and starts to kiss me. Her breasts are indeed quite large, and not only are they pendulous, but they are very pendulous.

^The Judy’s – Milk^

Yeah, that’s where the dream ended. An no, I did not wake up in a puddle of goo. I recalled upon waking that she had a lot of orgasms, but I myself don’t recall having any in the dream. I guess I was having entirely too good of a time to bother with the orgasm. During the entire dream, the first lady had some kind of air about her that made me feel at ease. I’m unlikely to be able to describe it to you in any detail, but there was something about her and something about being in her presence that caused no alarm bells, even tho there were most certainly red flags popping up everywhere.

The only actual alarm bell I got was from the second woman, and that was only because of her telling me that the first woman was married. I got no alarm bells from the second woman either, but there was the one red flag (other than the fact that she wanted to have sex with me) and that was that she told me that the other woman was married.

Yep, a red flag and an alarm bell in one. 

Lemme splain…see, I got no alarm bells from the first woman, so, even tho this second one says the first is married, how do I know that? The second woman may be lying. I got the red flag in the dream, I got the alarm bell in the dream, so why is it that it only occurred to me after waking that the second woman may have been lying?

Fucked if I know either. 

I only know that I felt totally at peace with the first woman and she seemed totally comfortable with herself. Maybe it’s because most of the time she was speaking to me as if I were a person, other times were very matter-of-fact, and there was little in the way of actual seduction or vamping, and I never had the feeling that she was trying to charm me. More like a situation where two people were talking, and it evolved into something else. And for the record, I don’t think that her being considerably younger than I, and also falling within a physical category that I tend not to pay much mind to really played much part. I personally have always had eyes for older women, and “older women” tend to almost never fall into the same physical categories as “younger women” with respect to dimensions and “perfect dimensions” and all that jazz. Got nothing against anyone being younger than me, and at 54 I’m not even sure what “being younger than me” even matters or what part it might play once a woman is deep into her 30’s or 40’s.

Yeah, if some 23 year old woman waltzed up to me and expressed interest? Fucking hell, Jesse Owens time, cause something is wrong with this scene and I’m getting the hell out of there. But someone that is 45 or so? Yeah, that’s weird to contemplate as even tho she’s 9 years younger than I….SHE’S FOURTY-FUCKING-FIVE FOR CHRISSAKES!!! Probably already has an AARP card, owns a burial plot, a vegetable garden, and cares for a minimum of 5 indoor cats and probably at least 10 outdoor cats. Levity aside, she’s been around, and likely loaded with battle scars and baggage.

That, I can relate to. 

Experience. And that’s not to say that younger woman or younger folks cannot have experience, because they absolutely can. I guess I’m just a bit weirded out that this one particular woman appeared to be in her early to mid-30’s, but she moved and behaved like someone that was much older. Well, perhaps not physically moving as an older person because she was quite spry and I guess it’s possible that older women may not have the ability to be all sporty and ambitious sexually, but I really wasn’t thinking of “how she moved” as it pertained to coitus. More her mannerisms, how she carried herself, how she behaved.

And why was my time with the second chick so brief? Why did my brain decide that I’d had enough? Very perplexing the lot of it. No idea what it all means tho.

Dreams are weird.
^Animal Collective – My Girls^

Not a clue why I’m suddenly having a dream about a woman.

Two, no less. 

Yeah, I’ve had eyes for a few ladies (and I do mean few, meaning, I think exactly four to be specific) over the past 5 years, but I’ve never pursued any because I am in no position to do so. Were my position different, yeah there’s a good chance I would have likely prompted them for an immediate rejection long ago, but I’m in no such position. I’ve not much money, no automobile, I’m old, I’m weird, I’m outcast in my family and have few friends, and am unattractive in just about every way imaginable. Question here being, why am I now dreaming about a woman/women? And why so casual? Is this something in my subconscious thinking about finding a partner that accepts me for who/what I am, as I am?

Meh, I’ll shutup about it and figure it out on my own. Maybe I can figure out something that will result in me getting laid. Will keep you posted.

WAIT! 

Actually, I won’t keep you posted. I’m not very gossipy and certainly don’t kiss and tell. Cept maybe that which transpires in my dreams.

/shrug
^Cocteau Twins – Lorelei (Extended Version)^

If you are plumbing the depths of philosophy, and suddenly find yourself thinking that you are smart or wise or learned or have reached enlightenment or you’re a master now or whatever? That feeling of power you are experiencing is actually nature’s alarm bells ringing. You can go ahead and get all high and mighty if you so desire, just know that if you do choose to go that route, an ass-kicking is likely awaiting you somewhere down that path.

Maybe even more than one (assuming you survive the first one and decide to continue on).

Hell, maybe the ass-kickings are worth it. Maybe some special something lay at the end of the path paved by cravings for dominance. And if you think about it, probably the most egotistical path that anyone ever took (or at least so far as I know) was the path taken by God. And yes, that “God” of the Holey Bobble.

I mean, Bible, Holy. 

When dissected, that entire creative act was nothing but ego, and all for ego, resulting in a shitload of ego and egos. Seriously, have you ever stopped to consider that God had to, at some point, stop themselves prior to actually creating things, and contemplate the concept of “what if things go wrong?”

Really...chew on that for a moment. 

The resources of “existence” are, so far as we know, finite. There’s only so much matter and only so much energy available to work with. If you burn up too much, or even burn it all up, what are you left with? What are your options? To me, I read the creation story of Genesis as an entity taking a very big chance. Yes, this entity was totally alone, probably quite lonely, maybe wanted some company, but if this fucker was/is as smart/intelligent as advertised, that means they HAD to know that, if this doesn’t work, I’m (potentially) fucked forever.

Lotta dynamics in that creation story, but it’s been my experience that no one ever wants to plumb these depths. Really break down what God may have been thinking. Too much reliance on the “all powerful” and “all knowing” angles, with no exploration (nor empathy) at all regarding the psychology of the act(s). Not publicly or outwardly anyway. Good fucking way to get your ass ostracized or maybe even tied to a pole and set on fire. THEN who are you gonna have to talk to, eh?

^The Cure – Catch^

Yeah, at the end of that previous section, I suggested that “siding with God” tends to get one’s ass kicked to the curb, or at least sent to the back of the bus. Even by “the godly”. People have their own understanding of things, and that’s good enough for them. Trouble is, they also require it to be good enough for everyone else.

What I also suggested in the end of the previous section, was that maybe God is isolated because we put them there. Cast them out. Push them away. Look, I am totally honest with you when I say I have no fucking clue if God is real or if there are gods or whatever. But I can also say in complete honesty that “there is something”. I don’t believe, I don’t disbelieve, I exist, and I attempt to assimilate and understand the data provided me as best I can. And holy shit is there a fucking mountain of evidence to suggest that “something” exists. “Something” outside of our understanding and beyond it. Not just and only in the myriad of tales coming to us through the ages either, but here, and now. That the unknowable exists, it can be known to exist, and simultaneously remain unknowable. Now, if that doesn’t instill you with some kind of hope, I don’t know what will. To me anyway, it says that not only can the unknowable be known of, it can be incrementally known, which means that at some point the unknowable can be entirely known.

I would imagine that our mortality/our finite amounts of time as we measure it here could put quite the dampener on such thoughts. Make such a quest seem hopeless or maybe even impossible. But let me add this, and that is, if it is impossible, then from whence does this desire to seek it emanate?

Something is feeding this desire. 

If knowing the unknowable was truly impossible, I’d think that the desire to seek the unknowable would also be impossible or incapable of existing. The desire to know the unknowable cannot exist on a plane where the unknowable also exists, yet cannot be known. That says to me that, not only does the unknowable actually exist, but the possibility of knowing the unknowable also exists. I’d also think that the desire to know the unknowable could not exist if the unknowable did not also actually exist.

Wait, did I just repeat myself there kinda? Say something I already said? Meh fuckit…just wondering aloud how I can posses a desire for a something that does not exist. How I can have knowledge of a something that does not have even the tiniest of perceptible indications as to it’s existence.

^Gary Numan – I Dream Of Wires^

Ya know, another thing that seems to be dangerous within philosophy is omission. Suppression. Relegation. Dismissal. Unqualification or even misqualification. These things seem to express themselves for a reason, and to dismiss or otherwise incorrectly qualify them seems to be an invitation for disaster of one kind or another. I know I know, you cannot have distinction without specificity, and specificity requires some level isolation. But this is philosophy we’re talking about. If money ever had competition for attracting gluttonous and/or insatiable persons/entities, I’d think philosophy would be it. Meaning, to “not want it all” with respect to philosophy almost seems like missing the point of philosophical meanderings entirely.

Hey, do you catch the irony in me saying to exclude exclusion? Suppress suppression? Relegate relegation? Dismiss dismissal?

Paradoxical. 

I think maybe more than anything I’m thinking of being mindful of when one is being exclusive or when one has excluded a something. Remember that you have done so. Might provide some insight upon encountering impasses. Just, be sure to remember not to suppress your remembering, lest ye forget.

^Ministry “We Believe”^

The stress finally got to me yesterday. It took a shade over seven days to crush my spirit, and I spent a good portion of the late afternoon and evening feeling absolutely terrible.

Physically. Drained. 

Like some part of me had given up or maybe just collapsed under the strain. So much hope and so many thoughts of a fresh start, plus perhaps some thoughts of maybe just a little time to breathe and reflect and maybe do some soul searching in the midst of a new perspective…

nope. 

An extension of the old. And why not tho? I’m still me, right? Same old person? Seriously, will anyone ever allow you to be anything other than what you are, which is actually an amalgam of what you have been? Nah, people like you the way you are…even if they hate or despise you. People like reliable things. Consistent things. They want others to be reliable, and yes, even if you can only be counted on to be a dirty dish rag. It bolsters their own position. I mean, if you get your shit together and they no longer have complaints about you, they’re out of a job. Suddenly, they become what you were…

an unemployed loser. 

On top of that, they were wrong about you, and no one like being wrong. They gotta figure out how they were so wrong about things. And I’d figure they’d also need to either endeavor to put you in your place, or find a new recruit.

Q: Is this what codependency is?

A: ???

A need to find individuals on which one can project their own world view, and self-reinforce that world view in order to reinforce individual perspectives on how the world is and/or how they think the world should be? I only ask because it sounds like codependency with a healthy portion of gaslighting. But, I admit that I don’t understand a lot of these psychological archetypes, and I also think that I’m too hopeful of a person and too happy a person to always try and paint folks in such lights.

Wait! Hol’up, hol’up…wait just a damn minute here…

Q: Is “being hopeful” and/or “being happy” to be considered a psychological condition and/or psychological conditions?

A: Like, a negative psychological condition?

What is it that we are ever, supposed to be. What, is, “right”? Anyone have any ideas?

^Fiction Reform – “Whites in Their Eyes” Basement Records^

One of the problems with philosophic, psychological and similar or related studies is that you cannot engage in studies of such areas without getting dirty in some way. You must leave who you are behind and become something you are not, or at a minimum get out and dabble a bit. Let’s be fair, one does not really need to obtain 3rd degree burns over 90% of one’s body to know that fire is hot and/or fire burns.

One of the interesting dichotomies about the realms known as Heaven and Hell is that these places and the entities that reside in them are so wrapped up in their own individual archetypes that they lack any empathy for their opposition whatsoever, hence, they cannot step outside of their realms and know anything except their own realms. This includes any preconceived notions they have about their opposites and the inherent need to support/reinforce these notions due to where they are. I mean, if you are a resident of Hell, probably not the best of ideas for you to start making “what’s so bad about Heaven?” types of inquiries.

If the Heaven/Hell example doesn’t work for you, maybe think “Democrat/Republican” or “Tory/Labour” or similar. Anyway, the point is, to truly understand the whys, it would appear that you cannot take these answers from the lore of your peers. To truly know, you’re gonna have to go.

Yourself. 

You’re gonna have to soujourn, and you’re gonna have to do your best to carry some objectivity with you, otherwise, you may as well just save yourself the time and hassle and just stay home. I have sometimes wondered if this is how the plane we currently find ourselves in, first came into existence in the first place. Entities stepping outside of their bounds of light or dark, questing to know otherness, and here is where they wind up. It’s neither, it’s nor, it’s…whatever this is. Some call it a “middleground”, but I personally have a problem with that because it suggests that “purity” can only exist in light/dark or good/evil, and that this plane cannot have a purity of its own. Cannot have its own essence. Cannot have properties of both (or neither) which make it a thing unto itself. Wholly unto itself. It’s not that, and it’s not that, it is this.

When I think in those terms, this “3D” existence that we are said to occupy, in my mind anyway, breaks down entirely and retreats to its base forms of light/dark. Hell, maybe that’s how universes are destroyed. When the dimensions are as such that they can no longer support a thing where it is a thing unto itself, it collapses.

Standard stuff, right? 

Welp, what about the opposite tho? A thing becomes such a distinct and well-defined thing unto itself, that the sources which originally created it are no longer required, and those source universes/dimensions collapse. I have to wonder if it is possible for the ether or perhaps nothingness to collapse. Nothing becomes a something that is not nothing. Would that be a singularity? Or maybe a type of singularity?

/shrug...I'm miles from where this section started.
^Cocteau Twins – Blue Bell Knoll (Dirtyhertz Remix)^

Water is a thing.

Dirt is a thing.

Water + Dirt = a thing called mud.

Mud ain’t an actual thing tho. It’s more of a state of two other things when within a proximity to each other.

What I’m getting at here is how “physical laws” pertain to the abstract concepts known as good and evil or right and wrong or whatever. More than that tho, assuming that pure evil and pure good are tangible things which actually exist, why is there no “pure neither”. When thinking about “states”, there’s a transitional or transient nature to the idea, or at least a finite one. I’d think anything “pure” could be none of these things. It is fixed and yet permeable. Non-reactive. Non-finite. Scale or amount within a wider context is irrelevant. Even if a only single atom of a something exists within the entirety of the known universe, and if it is indeed “pure”, it is non-finite. I guess what I’m pondering here is our own definitions and applications of the term “pure”.

EX: There are those who say “Adolph Hitler was pure evil”. Well, if he was pure evil, why was he so finite? The fucker had been dead for 22 years before I got here, and my entire life, people cannot shut the fuck up about him. Moreover, does chalking up Hitler as “pure evil” give everyone else in history a free pass from evil? Comparatively? Ok yeah, Torquemada was bad, but not as bad as Hitler. This makes no sense as it lessens “the evil” of Torquemada.

What I’m really thinking about tho is how, if Adolph Hitler really was “pure evil”, why did it take so long to manifest in him? An opposite to Hitler is Jesus/Yeshua, and that fucker came out pure pure pure from the get go. Occurs to me that if someone is indeed capable of being “pure”, they’re gonna be pure start to finish whether good or evil. You cannot catch the the good bug or the evil bug for a period of time, ride it for a while, and expect to be “pure” good or evil. It’s more like you’re infected or have had some kind of mental break. Finite. Passing. A phase.

Look, I’m think that it’s impossible for us to know anything “pure” because we’ve developed some really fucked up ideas as to what pure is via our ideas on how purity is obtained. Mainly via absence of impurity, which if you ask me is totally fucking backwards. Like, water cannot be “99%” pure, but it can be “1% impure”. We just flip it on it’s head because it sounds better to focus on the pure bits instead of the impure ones. We basically lie because the truth is too painful.

That's....that's totally fucked up. 

I guess such is life in a world that exist because of, and survives upon, percentages.

^The Naked And Famous – Punching In A Dream (One Temporary Escape)^

Ya know how they say “idle hands are the devil’s workshop”?

So, why is it then, that when some do-gooder who has nothing better to do gets a wild hair up their ass to go out in the world and shake things up, why then, are they operating under the assumption that they are doing good?

Oh, that’s right, they are “good” hence anything they do is also “good”.

Right?

Soooooo…all one really need do is obtain the title of “good”, and everything you do after that can be concealed under the title?

Fucking hell…you never have to be wrong, ever again…if when you are wrong.

Sweet.
^Pixies Hey (Junk DNA remix)^

HEY! That reminds me…you douchebags been participating in the Gloom Dog Book Club? If not, you should be. I’ve gotten so excited over the concept that I’ve been reading and reviewing books that aren’t even on the list. Gotta be honest tho, that trend started because there have been a few books I could not find, so I read and reviewed some random something just to have something to read and review. Will say this tho, this reading adventure that CStM is guiding us through has rekindled my love of reading. I went to the library the other day, got this month’s selection called “The Help”, and I checked out 5 other books too.

lolz...

I’m telling you, I’m getting jazzed over this reading stuff. Anyway, if you were unaware of Gloom Dog, you’re aware of it now. Join us. Or not.

Whatevz.
^Sigur Rós – Ekki múkk^

cYacFa

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*I don’t know if that’s a thing or a state, Clicky… /stubs butt… Here, have you got Leggy’s tweet?*

We hope you’ve enjoyed reading Cade’s missive, Dear Reader. Just to let you know that CstM’s other half, Leggy, has opened submissions for the next Underdog Anthology. Short stories of all genres are welcome 😀

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Happy 5th November, Dear Reader…

*Looks boisterous, Clicky… /lights up and smokes… Not like in the movies…*

… To be honest, I’ve never been keen on Bonfire Night, so it’s fortunate that Cade has sent through a missive for me to format and post…

*Yeah, I can forget the bangs and whistles outside, Clicky…*

*Give up smoking? …/flicks ash… Get fucked, you cheeky bugger…*

… Which I have now done, and we are delighted to present it for your reading and listening pleasure, below. Enjoy! 😀

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INFLUENZA – INFLUENCER

INFLUENCER – INFLUENZA

INF LU

IN FLUE

IN FLEW

IN FLU

EN CER – EN ZA
INF
En (Deity)
Cer
ZA

SIGH CO LODGE E CAL

SI COH LOGY KAL

SIKE OH LAHJ EEK AL

PSY KOH LAW G COAL

COAL…FLUE

!EYEM AWN FI YUH!

Yeah, I think someone can play that/those angle(s).

I’m thinking someone can absolutely work those particular vibes.

^Young Frankenstein Theme on Violin^

You doing okay? How’s your life been treating you? How have you been treating yourself? Been treating others okay? Others treating you okay? How are you coping with the fact that you and many others have paid untold amounts of money into a system and systems designed to keep you healthy and well, and yet the whole damn thing appears to be on the verge of total collapse? There are even elements which appear to be both obviously and openly kicking the pillars out from under it. You may even be joining in.

/shrug

Ever since the Brexit and Trump things happened, I keep getting these “organized crime” type vibes about goings on in the world. Almost like some hidden architecture has called in some debts, and as a result, loads of leaders have been acting squirrely as fuck. Unpredictable. Irrational. Erratic. Acting in very contrarian and doing things that, one would think, they would not do.

Something that has paralleled this weird behavior is all of these “union” types of rumblings in virtually ever sector. Unions, cartels, syndicates, call them what you want, but the “union” vibe permeates just about anything and everything as it pertains to news. A gathering or collection type resonance. Must also point out that it doesn’t appear to matter where one gets their news/information either, that “union” vibe is everywhere. Once you gather things, you gotta move them. And that’s where the real money is…moving things. Transportation and any and every thing that facilitates these things getting to where they are going. This latest vibe is a change in direction of the “unity” within the medical industry. March 2020, everyone was consolidated and unified. September 2021, the wheat is being separated from the staff, I mean, chaff. Divisiveness. First gathered together, now, set asunder. A selection process appears to be happening right before us, but to be fair I may just be some kook misinterpreting the goings on. Now, I gotta ask a question…

Q: Why would “the higher ups” within the medical industry want to cut off and cut out their most senior and most experienced staff?

A: To make room for the more hungry, less experienced and more easily manageable (and lower paid) n00bs.

I wonder how many RNs/NPs are being pumped out each year anyway, and is it possible that some critical mass has been reached at some point which has necessitated a culling of nurses?

Changes In The Pipeline Of New NPs And RNs: Implications For Health Care Delivery And Educational Capacity

A pipeline for pumping folks out of the ground then to the refinery and then into the storage tanks to await further distribution. These human pipelines are in and amongst every aspect of our lives, but many of them are buried or hidden or elevated or obfuscated in such a way that the consumer really doesn’t care about the particulars of how they get what they want, as long as they get it. Being too nosey is dangerous, after all. At best, being nosey might spoil the illusion, and at worst, being nosey might just get one into trouble or get you on some radars you’d prefer not to be on. And hey, make sure you scroll all the way down and read the comments on that article. After that, look at the date(s) on the article/comments.

^Transylvanian Lullaby – The Aces^

Is it a coincidence that “flu season” and “flue season” coincide? Do people even have fireplaces anymore? Wood stoves? Coal stoves? Some kind of something to at a minimum act as a backup in the event electrical power is lost? Or maybe a backup in the event your home’s electrical heating fails?

Flue-Cured Tobacco

Nah, you’re far too trusting of the system and their systems to ever doubt them. Having a backup something might even qualify as disloyalty/signify disloyalty. Gotta keep that negative metadata and those negative metrics to a bare minimum so as to maintain your standing in the community.

^Los Straitjackets – “Theme From Young Frankenstein” (Official Audio)^

Rut Roh! Looks like the elite of the cooking/dining world are staging their own “VACS” rebellion…over A VAC A DOOS!

End of the avocado: why chefs are ditching the unsustainable fruit
I’m a Mexican-Irish chef. We grew up eating avocados. But I’ll never touch them again
Chefs declare war on a trendy fruit because of its enormous carbon footprint
High-profile chefs are rejecting the beloved avocado in favor of more sustainable foods

War on fruit. What ever will they think of next.

^Laura Farms – The Grossest Part of Farming^

Why are people still arguing over Bernoulli/Newton when it comes to lift as it pertains to a wing? It’s both. Low pressure + equal and opposite = lift. Call the effect a BERNEWTON or a NEWBERN or OULLITON or NEWTONOULLI or some shit. Stop this “torque vs horsepower” type argument bullshit, accept the fact that both forces are simultaneously equally/inequally responsible for lift at various times, and move on. Oh, and don’t forget, that if the wing itself, did not exist, neither would this phenomenon and the resulting argument(s).

Right? 

Once the airplane and/or “the wing” go the way of the Dodo, none of this bullshit will matter.

^Young Frankenstein Main theme violin and organ^

People used to ask me all the time

Q: Dude, how in the hell do airport workers drive anywhere and everywhere like they do, and not constantly cause accidents? Why is the utter chaos of airport ramp vehicles not a crash-up-derby type bloodbath?

A: Easy...everyone drives defensively, and for the most part everyone respects everyone else's spaces and rights.

On the regular streets, roadways and highways, everyone drives as if they own the road. They use their automobiles as some type of armor, then they go out onto the roadways of the world and look for people to offend them/challenge their rights. Driving has become like some kind of arena to exercise legal, moral, social and I guess political influence. They’re also likely distracted from the actual driving and navigation duties by all kinds of things, which puts the driver’s focus anywhere and everywhere except inside the cockpit of the vehicle. Best of all, there’s a very “one-off” type dynamic to any negative encounters in automobiles/drivers on public roadways. You are unlikely to ever see that automobile or its driver ever again. Frees one up a bit from having to worry about seeing them over and over and having an ongoing conflict one has to deal with day after day. You can basically be as big of a dickhead as you want, do so guilt free since you are convinced that you were in the right, and it doesn’t matter how your actions effected the other party either because you don’t have to see them nor any misery you’ve caused.

Yeah, at an airport, you’re gonna be forced to live and work and interact with the same folks day after day. If you want to survive, you do so by letting others survive.

^America’s WORST ROAD RAGE & Public Freakouts #2^

Tolerance levels. Availability of moderators and/or corroborative data for/against. There’s a weird something sneaking around in my head regarding why tolerance levels are what they are as it pertains to drivers on public roadways. Why people put on the enforcer type hat when they operate a motor vehicle as if they are going out driving for the express purpose of enforcing the law via their own means and methods. They’re very strict about their interpretations of law too. No courtesy. No understanding. No forgiveness. No empathy. No exceptions.

This is the law, follow it. 

Offensive driving I guess one would have to call this. Driving for the express purpose of being offended, which would have to mean that you and your own modes and rigidities are likely the catalyst for these “offenses” happening in the first place. But, what do you care? You’ve got your dash cam/impartial witness now. You’ve obviously got some free time to spend on litigation/fighting. Get out there and stir up some shit. Do your social experiments. Create those situations that never would have happened had you not forced them too. Live it up you anti-zen citizen you.

^UK Dash Cameras – Compilation 42 – 2021 Bad Drivers, Crashes & Close Calls^

Will not be long before I cease sharing music that I listen to whilst writing. I’ve always done this so that you the reader can listen to the same awesome music I do, and maybe even get turned on to some music you never would have heard otherwise. That trend is gonna have to stop tho. The density of commercial advertisements on YouTube have reached a point that I can no longer justify sharing music no matter how awesome it is. Just have to find a new source of music I guess. In the interim tho, will eventually just have to cut out music at the end of each section.

Sorry.
^Transylvanian Lullaby – arranged and performed by Erutan (katethegreat19)^

I ended the previous post at my own blog with a video that compared participation in illicit/recreational drugs to participation/non-participation in “legal”/”healthy” drugs, but after thinking about it all night, something else occurred to me. We live in times and an environment where many drugs that have previously been made illegal, are being made legal.

Ya know, for health reasons. 

Marijuana is the biggie. Sometimes marijuana itself is being made legal and/or maybe just decriminalized, and other times extracts or derivatives of the plant are being made legal. I guess CBD is the popular one since it (supposedly) doesn’t actually get you high, but it does help with pain and pains. What I’m actually thinking about here tho is the environment itself. Our environment. The political and social environment which exists in our own time(s) and according to our own designs. In this instance, what I am thinking about is people lining up to take what could be construed as an illicit drug and/or illicit drugs…the SARS-CoV2/COVID-19 vaccines.

Q: What drugs are people typically portrayed as wanting?

A: The illegal kinds. Especially the expensive kinds of illegal kinds.

The more difficult a something is to get, the more worthwhile it is to get it.

The more expensive a something is, the more exclusive it is to possess it.

Vaccines are expensive. Just sayin'.

Thinking about commercial interests playing to people’s hidden desires to participate in illegal activities. In this case, it’s well known that these COVID-19 drugs should not be legal. They’ve not gotten the proper OK’s that are typical and right, at best they fall into the grey areas, but in reality they’re black market goods because they’ve not followed the established protocols which would land them into the white zone irrespective of the circumstances. It is this that has gotten me to thinking that the pharmaceutical companies have to be aware that they are playing to any human subconscious desires to participate in illicit activities as it pertains to the things we call “drugs”. Playing on naturally occurring human desires to be a bit naughty. To further this dynamic, they’re giving the first one away for free. It’s genius marketing when you think about it.

But you are likely asking, why? Why would “legitimate” businesses and upstanding and righteous government interests be down with creating a situation where they would intentionally lead their innocent sheep consumers/citizens into the grey areas? That’s simple, to make the transition from “illegal” to “legal” more seamless and painless, but most of all to ensure that the least amount of resistance is met as various drugs transition from the black markets to the retail store shelves.

Best I can figure, vaping was the gateway drug. 

I don’t know if this was by design, but it sure as shit has opened some doors. Then this “COVID-19” variable got dropped in our laps, the rapid approvals of the COVID-19 vaccines then giving it away for free under the guise of public safety got everyone on board the “guilt by association/participation” train. Further still, it pushes those who do not wish to participate off into the “religious zealot” category, and now we’ve got this weird quantum mechanics/alternate universe type flip happening where everything is backwards and the previous rule-sets no longer apply. All the folks who were previously the evil shitbags are now “the goody goodies”, and the good folks are piled into the areas of shadows and darkness. Very strange turn of events. A helluva plot twist.

But, I think the biggest thing here is just taking advantage of the situation in order to make black market drugs more easily make the transition to decriminalization or legalization. As to whether this was actually just an opportunity that arose completely by accident and someone had the good sense to spot it, or whether all of this was actually part of a larger and ongoing design, I guess will just have to be a subject for debate. One thing is kinda clear tho, there’s been some bait dropped into the waters, and a lot of people have taken the bait/gotten hooked.

^Young Frankenstein Theme Guitar Cover^

My employment opportunities continue to improve.

TV Show Casting: SINGLE Men & Women with REAL Alien Encounters (Fort Worth, TX)

Make some money and get laid?

Oh hell yes...beam me up Scota!
^Young Frankenstein (1974) Bloopers & Outtakes^

Weird seeing that abductee/experiencer/UFO matchmaking thing on Craigslist this morning as only yesterday me and a certain someone watched a doc about a social group for yet another specific breed of conspiracy theorist looking to socialize/get laid…

the flat-earther(s).
The documentary appears to contain a large amount of lacking.
^Young Frankenstein – Gil Shaham (violin) – A Transylvanian Lullaby – John Morris^

With all the hate towards the “classical” types of social activities, is it really any wonder that people are just making up seemingly random, strange and unusual excuses just to have a reason to meet others/socialize? Maybe even just to have a reason to get out of the fucking house? Have somewhere to go? Have something to do? Have something to occupy themselves and/or entertain themselves in a social type setting?

The Stars: The Biggest Case AGAINST a Flat Earth

Bars and clubs have been demonized. Dancing has been demonized. Music has been demonized. Movies have been demonized. Dining out and/or food has been demonized. Alcohol, drugs and smoking has been demonized. Churches and religious activities have been demonized. Fraternal groups have been demonized. Rallies, parades and protests have been demonized. “Traditional” celebrations and observances have been demonized. And now that this SARS-CoV2 variable has been dropped into the social melting pot, “getting together” for any reason or any purpose whatsoever is teetering on being damn near totally illegal under any circumstance(s). Who is trying to keep us apart?

Why? 

Gotta be, at least in some part, backlash from all of that “terrorist/terrorism” hype of the past few decades. Couple that with all of the very polarizing nature of advertising, and you’ve got generations of folks who only want to participate in the most safe, secure, certified, approved and socially acceptable of activities. Otherwise there might be some kook show up with firearms or explosives or some other kind of weaponry and turn a good time into a shit show. Which reminds me, in addition to all of the “union” vibes I’ve been getting over the past few years, I’ve also been getting a “mole hunt” vibe. Someone within the architecture and/or architectures is looking for something. Running some of the weirdest and most outlandish shit up the flagpoles to see who salutes. At least some of this appears to be copycat “meme” type stuff, but there are some rather obvious and glaring examples of interests actively participating in some very abstract, asymmetrical and even outlandish types of activities in order to, I assume, draw out/flush out their prey. Root out disloyalty and/or threats of any kind.

Shit like that is just…

weird. 

You wanna believe JFK Jr. is actually still alive, fine…knock yourself out. But just be aware that unless you personally actually have an active an ongoing relationship with this dead man, could just be a case that someone is leading you around by the nose to get their kicks. A prank or trick designed to gain your confidence and eventually enlist your participation, all for the eventual big reveal when they can see your dejected face, see your pain at being duped…“for the lulz”. Perhaps in the long run empty, but certainly empowering. For the moment. Maybe not so much in the long run.

^Young Frankenstein Theme – Theremin Thursday^

What the hell is “the long run” anyway, if not a series of short runs. We all have the runs. That’s all life is, a chronic case of the runs. I guess that’d make “the long run” some kind of septic tank type of thing?

lolz

What a shitty thought.

^The Transylvanian Lullaby – Interpretive Cover^

Yes, it’s that time of the month again dear friends. Week, I mean. It’s Friday. Little over a week and I’ll be blasting off for Sin City, where I shall be participating in several days of nonstop food, booze, lechery and gambling. Or at least a hefty booze intake, maybe some modest food intake, very little gambling whatsoever, and almost assuredly no lechery at all. The only “nonstop” part of my trip will be the flight.

(lolz) 

Mainly it’s just me getting out of the house on someone else’s nickel in celebrating my 54th consecutive year of being totally worthless and completely lost with nary a penny to my name. Where better to do that, than fabulous Las Vegas, Nevada. A place I’ve never been, never really ever had a desire to go to, and now that I’m actually going, I have not a fucking clue what I’m actually gonna do when I get there. It’ll be great. I’ll be in my element. I shine when I’m lost, rudderless, clueless and have to make shit up as I go. Kinda weird that there’s an eclipse supposedly happening exactly at the tail end of my Vegas trip.

Symbolic? 

It wasn’t by design for sure, but I have to wonder if there’s any symbolism in my trip ending just as there is a lunar eclipse. Some premonitory or omen-ish type something. A harbinger. Some galactic something signifying some end or ending. Suits me just fine. Best thing about endings is that they signify a beginning.

^Theme from Young Frankenstein^

Ya know…if you didn’t take the time to listen to at least some of the “Transylvanian Lullaby” vids from Young Frankenstein, you might just have missed a something. Different interpretations of the same fucking thing, and accomplished via many varied instruments and performers. No matter how far off the beaten path some of these folks have gotten, no matter how good or how bad you interpret their own interpretations to be, that core vibe is still present. Did you sense it?

Or have you been lulled to sleep? 

Sleep is not a bad thing btw. Well known that our bodies heal during sleep, and that’s also the time when dreams happen. Just wondering if you also caught on that this core tune is a lullaby. Even in the movie, the tune’s purpose is to quell the beast. Cage the rage with a sweet vibrating smell of audible sage. All that said tho, one of main points of the exercise was to see if that central or original vibe remains within a something that is altered/modified. I think it is. And I must say that I was quite shocked to see so many folks our there doing all kinds of creative and clever things with this particular tune. So much inspiration generated by a more or less goofy tune from a farcical movie.

What are the odds of that?
^Transylvanian Lullaby (Young Frankenstein Theme) – Euphonium Multitrack^

Which reminds me, I saw something recently where it was suggested that our natural state is actually sleep, and our waking hours are little more than time spent exclusively on data collection to power/fuel our dreams. Weird concept for sure considering the nature of dreams. Almost has a taffy-pulling machine type vibe to the thought. Take reality and its cold, hard corners…stretch and pull and morph it into a more malleable, gooey, sweet mess. Totally counter-intuitive to the mainstream thought processes which prefer clarity and solidity and rigidity and the securities they (supposedly) provide.

^theme from young frankenstein?^

cYacFa

^Welcome to Transylvania l Young Frankenstein (UKE COVER & TUTORIAL)^

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*Cade certainly covers some ground in his missives, Clicky… /stubs butt…*

Thank you for joining us and have a good we kenned, Dear Reader. Oh, and have a Song…

Missive From ‘Merica: Bend It, Shape It, Shake & Bake It

*Blimey! I’ve been to three of the Canary Islands, but not that one… /lights up and smokes… Wait! Isn’t that the volcano in that Horizon doc I saw ages ago, Clicky?*

*Thought so. Shit… /plumes smokes… well, let’s hope that don’t ‘appen…*

Hello there, Dear Reader. I’ve been under the kosh for the past few days, as I’ve been trying to finish writing ‘OK Charon!’, the next installment of my Ronageddon series of stories for the next Underdog Anthology. So I was delighted to find a missive from Cade Fon Apollyon waiting for me this morning… 

*It’s always a pleasure to read Cade’s writing, Clicky…* 

… And I couldn’t wait to share it with you. Enjoy!

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If those of you running things on the web and/or various websites have wondered if you are approaching critical mass on the number of ads you are subjecting visitors to, the answer is yes. For this reason, there will be no YouTube video accompanying this section. Sweet Jesus, you fuckers are off your rockers with the ads. And the popups now are worse than they were in the late 1990’s/early 2000’s. In fact, it’s now a rarity that a website does not give me a popup of some kind. Fucking hell…you do want me to read your content, right? Not spend the entirety of my time on your site clicking off popups in an attempt to read your content, then getting frustrated and leaving, never to return? But yeah, critical mass, website ads, you’re there.

Speaking of, I’ve had my current email address for 6 and 1/2 years, and in that entire span of time, I have not gotten ONE single piece of unsolicited email nor have I gotten one single piece of spam.

NOT...ONE! 

However, since ordering some Pizza Hut pizza online a coupla months ago? I’ve had a rich relative who I didn’t even know existed up and die and they left me like 30 million dollars, I’ve had someone offer to pay me several million dollars to help them smuggle their millions out of some backwater country, the United Nations/World Bank has discovered that they owe me 5.4 million dollars for some unknown reason, the International Monetary Fund has discovered that they owe me 10.7 million dollars because of corrupt bank officials and courier companies, and I’ve also won 1.2 million dollars in the Australian Lottery. Fuck ME! I had no idea giving my email to complete strangers was gonna make me so goddamn LUCKY!!!! And just in time for my Vegas tip too!

Thank you PIZZA HUT!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ 

Had you and/or your employees not sold my email address to a bunch of sleazy fucknuts for a few bucks, I would not be the multi-millionaire I am today.

^Republica – Ready To Go^

You, are way behind me. Your quest to elevate yourself to an enlightened state is happening so far behind my own that I am lightyears ahead of you. I am knocking on God’s door, and you are so fucking lost that you are still unsure whether or not God even has a door. Hell, you’re so far behind me that you’re prolly still doubting there even is a God.

X: This is not where you were going.

Cade: Correct.

0: May I interject here? I sense danger, and for once I’d like to see the kid avoid trouble if possible.

Cade: I was going to put forth the notion that, in some things, we might actually be able to challenge this almighty entity many of us have grown up hearing about.

0: But…you got lost.

Cade: Correct. I had an idea, was gonna write it down, and in the 15 to 20 seconds it took for me to pull my tubby ass off the floor and open my word processor, the thought was gone.

0: Why do you think that is?

Cade: I really do not know. I didn’t sense danger. And I honestly sat there for a minute or so trying to get the feeling back, but it did not come.

0: Feeling?

Cade: Yes. Everything that I write is a feeling. Something in me…erm…feels, like, a certain way or something, and the words come.

0: But, you aren’t being totally honest here. You had a brief moment where you thought “this might not be such a good idea”, and you were unable to recall your thought.

Cade: Again, correct.

0: So what is this “challenge God” crap?

Cade: I really don’t know. It was an idea that maybe sometimes we are on a more or less equal footing with…”elevated fuckers”, or whatever…and I wanted to explore the idea of what we as individuals chose to do in those situations.

0: Do you really think it a good idea to point out such things?

Cade: I can take the high ground here and say “no”, but I don’t think that would be honest to the feeling that I had in my gut.

0: Which was?

Cade: Perhaps a bit on how to deal with success.

0: You aren’t very good with that.

Cade: Fuck no I ain’t. I have no idea what “success” even is beyond some social construct where outside opinion is required in order to justify a contextual something.

0: And shortly after any such proclamations, you’re right back to being a moron.

Cade: Exactly. Some…”poking my head above the clouds” type of moment occasionally exists within the fabric of space and time, these moments are rare, and fleeting.

X: You think that in these moments, you’ve challenged God, and won?

Cade: No. As far as I can tell, the idea is to challenge yourself and win. As to whether that victory somehow translates to God or others, I do not know.

X: And yet, you had an idea that led you to come here and write about the notion of “challenging God”, and now you’re talking about…whatever it is that you are talking about.

Cade: OK…then let’s wander back to where this idea sprang from.

0: Are you sure you want to do this.

Cade: No. But, I’m gonna do it anyway.

0: God be with you.

Cade: The original thought that got me to spinning was the idea of eliminating the concept of “human trafficking”.

0: You’ve temporarily fixed your broken headphones, you started to watch a documentary, but then you stopped watching it because you thought of a someone who might want to watch it with you.

Cade: Correct. I stopped, and someone in the documentary had just put forth the notion of “permanently eliminating human trafficking”.

0: Sounds like something good to aspire to.

Cade: God is the biggest human trafficker in history.

0: Uh oh…

Cade: You ain’t wrong. It’s a helluva thought to have, but after thinking on it for a moment, I can find no fault with the thought.

0: And so your idea was that you are basically “challenging God”?

Cade: No. My thought was that anyone who read my making the assertion that “God is the biggest human trafficker in history” would likely see me as challenging God. This had the knock-on effect of me starting to wonder if such thoughts in my own head are “a challenge to God”.

0: And you promptly sat up to start writing, then forgot what you were going to write.

Cade: Yes. BUT! See what just sitting down and writing a bit got me?

X: Why yes, I do.

Z: Concur.

A: Also.

Cade: lolz…look, I can see the thought being a bit…um, controversial or inflammatory or emotionally charged or whatever, but the point was, there was a dude in this film who suggested that we humans should endeavor to completely eliminate the concept of “human trafficking”, which on the surface sounds great and all, but it immediately became clear that in order to do so, there are metric shit tons of stuff that will need to be eliminated as a consequence.

0: And?

Cade: Well, I’m not going to go into all the details, but it immediately occurred to me that, if there is indeed “a” God, or if there are “gods”, anyone wanting to eliminate human trafficking is gonna find themselves toe-to-toe with these entities at some point.

X: And by default, will actually and eventually find themselves staring down “the” God?

Cade: Yes.

X: And the result would be?

Cade: No idea. I only know that, within the framework of “creation”, there appears to be a force that deals in human flesh/human lives, and for one to actually eliminate this “trafficking” would, perhaps, fuckup “Creation” as we know it.

X: And from there, your mind wandered.

Cade: Well, yeah. There’s all kinds of “futurist” types of considerations.

Z: Designer babies.

Cade: Yes, but in all honestly that concept is nothing new. People have been matchmaking in various modes since the beginning of time as far as I can tell. The only difference is maybe the means and a somewhat greater availability via technology and such.

A: And your feelings on these matters?

Cade: It comes down to the same shit as just about everything that I write.

A: Which is?

Cade: How many lines am I crossing, and am I in any way prepared to cross them.

X: You honestly think that “God” deals in flesh?

Cade: There are points in the Bible where God talks about intentionally making people stupid or blind or ignorant or hardening their hearts or whatever….I guess, in order for “God” to get what they want.

X: Your point?

Cade: I have to wonder sometimes if God makes me a moron for the express purpose of letting me blunder around in the dark.

Z: I admit I am a bit lost.

Cade: I know that is not true, but thank you for providing me a moment in which to meld these many ideas.

0: You are suggesting that God is a human trafficker…

Cade: Wait…for the sake of arguments, let’s make “God” and “Nature” somewhat interchangable.

X: Are you sure you want to do that?

Cade: Actually, no. It muddies the discussion something fierce. That said, it’s probably a fair approach seeing as how plenty of people seem to have no idea what to think about the concept of “God”.

T: Many have no idea what to think about the concept of “Nature” either.

Cade: Tru dat.

0: So you think that you have what is essentially a heretical and/or blasphemous type of thought, and you wonder if God is making you just stupid enough to ramble on about it anyway.

Cade: I think it highly possible that if there is some “higher” something actively working on my own life, that yes, they can potentially make me capable of being smart and stupid at the same time. And, fuck, they ain’t gotta do much at all to make me stupid.

0: And what about smart?

Cade: I’ll refer back to the original thought of typically needing some kind of outside influence to even have the slightest comprehension of what is typically billed as “success”. I’m successful at a lot of things that many if not most wouldn’t even bat an eye at because they aren’t things that are all flashy and make loads of people cream in their pants or swoon or whatever.

X: You’re thinking that “simulation theory” or “simulation hypothesis” is part of the posthumanist agenda.

Cade: It occurs to me that in order to eliminate “human trafficking”, there is a lot of average and boring shit that most “elevated folk” will almost certainly overlook, and all of this will also need to be tamed and then controlled.

X: And you think that the Posthumanists will think of these things?

Cade: Well, if they haven’t thought of it before, they’ll sure as shit be thinking about it now.

0: The Matrix has you Cade.

Cade: So it would seem.

0: And what was all that jazz about being ahead of others?

Cade: Just think that there has to be some property embedded within the concept of “ascension” where some, must, be left behind.

0: Doesn’t seem quite fair.

Cade: Fuck fair. I wasn’t thinking about “fair” as much as I was thinking more about how and why “elders” cannot relate to their own peers irrespective of where these peers may be in their own journey.

X: Get too big for for their own britches.

Cade: Maybe. Was just thinking that perhaps “relating” is so difficult because everyone is struggling so much to get those top tiers and become untouchable, that they forget from whence they came.

X: Interesting.

0: Do you?

Cade: Probably. I try not to, but I’m sure I fail miserably just like I fail at every other fucking thing.

X: Interesting.

0: …

^Kraftwerk – Die Roboter 1978 (1080p 50p)^

You may not have read all that. I would submit tho that yes indeedy, if one is going to endeavor to “end human trafficking”, it is likely that you are only thinking in terms of “evil”, and you’ve not thought this through. Hell, once you get to thinking in both good and evil terms, you’re then gonna have to stop thinking only in “human” terms, and that is gonna be so deep and overwhelming that you might just lose heart entirely.

Human tissue trafficking. Bacteria trafficking. Virus trafficking. Plant trafficking. Animal trafficking. Insect trafficking. Oil trafficking. CO2 trafficking. Mineral trafficking. Vitamin trafficking. *.* trafficking. Like it or not, your very existence causes you to stomp the living shit out of all kinds of things – you traffic in all kinds of things, and you likely don’t give these things a second thought, let alone think of yourself as a trafficker. However, if you’re gonna plumb these depths, you’re gonna have to give some of these things some thought. Or, you can just, half-ass it like most crusaders do. Take what you can get then pat yourself on the back for being all great and stuff.

Oh, and here's that documentary. 

Like I said, I didn’t get that far, and to be honest it looks more like hype and cheese than anything, but I’ll prolly give it a watch at some point. If for no other reason than to see where “the up and comers” are in their various journeys.

^A Glitch in the Matrix – Official Trailer^

Ya know, the big appeal of “The Matrix” is being in position to where the rules either do not apply to you, or you yourself can be in a position to bend or break the rules.

It's that simple. 

I get the feeling that someday, many folks are going to “wake up” and realize that all of the crap they were reaching for, they already had it. Already possessed the freedom to bend or even break any and every rule imaginable. It will be at this point that you’ll have to come clean with yourself and admit that what you were really looking for, was a realm where you could do as you please without fear of repercussion or reprisal. Welp, I got news for you…

these realms exist too. 

Very exclusive these realms tho. Very fragile too. And worst of all, they are almost certain to contain all the bullshit that you espouse to so vehemently oppose. Quite a loop. Cover a lot of ground, and go basically…

nowhere.
^Electro Swing Dance Freestyle: Spooky Scary Skeletons, Glenn Gatsby feat. Ashley Slater^

Do you even know what “swing” is? Of course you don’t. Who the fuck listens to swing anymore, let alone any music that either has swing in it or a swing to it.

^What is Swing? Swing Explained in 2 Minutes (Music Theory)^

Have often wondered about the nature of time, as it pertains to the times that are crammed in it. One of the most intriguing ideas is the notion of how time appears to run faster or slower under certain conditions. And by faster or slower, I’m referring to faster according to our own perception of “normal time”, or slower according to our own perception of “normal time”. Some examples would be when people have near-death or some other type of traumatic event, huge chunks of time can appear to run extremely fast, and we know that the further that one travels away from the Earth, the more time appears to slow down.

For me personally, all kinds of things are always running at strange times because of some “celestial events” that I use constantly as filters for my own thoughts. Big Bang, Big Crunch, Big Swirl, Pulsars, Novae, Black Holes, etc.. Over the past 10 years or so, I’ve also picked up some less relatable filters via thoughts about…erm…how do I word this…”entites who move through time differently than we do”. Basically, living beings of some kind that move through time and space faster or slower than we do. These thoughts can be quite scary when one thinks about contextual events such as “moving through space which contains a star, when operating in a realm where time moves thousands to millions faster or more slower according to the observer than time moves for us.”

I mean, can you imagine moving through a star when you’re only moving at 1 foot per year? Or 1 foot ever million years? Yeah, I know. There are questions there regarding things like mortality/immortality, but this does not invalidate the thoughts on speed if for no other reason than we humans have little to no understanding about either concept, and plenty of folks in our own human history who seem to think that at least some part of our own mortal being carries some immortal something within it. And of course, there’s that pesky “energy can neither be created nor destroyed” conservation of energy thing.

All that said, where I was really going with this is some thoughts that I’ve had regarding “The Big Bang” and the idea that it wasn’t just some singular something as it is usually portrayed in all those science shows with their fancy explosions. Namely my thoughts have been, it happened, it is still happening right now, and it will continue to happen. It is with that thought I’ve wondered…wait, what if a star is actually an exploding something that is running at a different time than we perceive time? Stars supposedly collect a bunch of crap that is floating around via some unknown process(es), then they eventually get so dense that some chain reaction starts via some critical mass, then all that shit catches on fire and starts burning. Welp, from there, our understanding is that the star starts expanding as it gives off energy and starts losing its mass, and a star will continue expanding, growing larger and larger throughout its “life”.

Sounds like an explosion to me. 

Perhaps a really fucking slow explosion, but an explosion nonetheless. Eventually, this “slow-ass explosion” will eventually speed up to speeds that we more readily understand when the thing goes nova or supernova. But until that time, I mean, the entire mass of the Universe is pressing down on this star, right? The entire mass of the Universe is basically containing this explosion. So, why would this “explosion” run at the same time as everything else?

^Underwater Submarine Explosion in Slow Mo – The Slow Mo Guys^

I’ve watched plenty of videos of the Slow Mo Guys and others blowing shit up underwater, and every time they do this, I’ve seen that little “star” or “Big Bang” representation in these detonations. However, for some reason that video above and that first pop Gav does really demonstrates these thoughts that I’ve had about time running slower (or faster) under certain conditions. Perhaps it’s the proximity of an object nearby, or maybe I’ve watched so damn many of these things that I was finally able to express in words what I’ve been seeing for so long. I’m not an educated fella so, I don’t really possess the vocabulary to express things the way some actual scientist might. And that’s by design because if I learn their language, I’m gonna just wind up talking like they do and saying the same shit they do and that ain’t gonna help anyone. Gotta find my own way. Or die trying.

Prolly gonna be that second one.
^[Electro Swing Remix] A Friend Like Me^

That shit always has a bend to it. And no matter what it is, if it’s not bending now, or it hasn’t bent in the past, you can bet your ass it is gonna bend at some point. Has to be some property embedded within even the most linear of somethings that, causes it to bend. Maybe even break. Maybe even break before the “bend” property can be realized or maybe even before it can be recognized as a bend.

Q: Can a “bend” property exist within a system, yet never be identifiable as such?

A: ? /?\ ?

Gotta be possible. You have no interest in this. It’s all “Big Swirl” crap and “The Big Swirl” isn’t even a real thing so, I’ll bail.

^”SING, SING, SING” BY BENNY GOODMAN^

cYacFa

^James Randi’s fiery takedown of psychic fraud^

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*For the Song? …/stubs butt.. That’s an idea, Clicky…*

I don’t know about you, but I feel refreshed now, and ready to get back down to writing. Thank you Cade ❤

See you next time, Dear Reader, and… Have a Song ❤